I do this all the time, write a few posts all at once, from the excitement of creating a blog, and forget about it. Perhaps I can come back to this particular one, or if times, and circumstances change, perhaps I would yet again create a new blog. And it would be absolutely okay with me.
Perhaps I should have kept through blogs that I deleted from attempting to forget my past. Those beautiful parts of myself, lost in time and space. Lost simply. I wonder if writing makes you lose who you are, and if it doesn't, wouldn't that be a good thing. You lose who you are so you create room to become who you are meant to be. It is as if you create yourself, you make yourself, you grow.
However, some part of me does think that I'm perhaps loosing it in these write-ups and this is not how normal people write. Normal people write mindfully, with knowing how the words would connect to make a statement, to make a feeling arise, to make an impact. I write, simply to write. I don't know how it would be received, or read, or if it is good or bad, uplifting or exhausting. i simply don't, I simply write. And personally I hope this is the best way to write. The way that beats all other, because it flows my senses, all or atleast most of the senses. Perhaps I miss a few, like the feelings, like the mind, but perhaps it would get at something much deeper, something intrinsic, something everyone has, but perhaps is not aware of. Each and everyone of our true-selves. I would like to believe this is where I write from so that I hope it reaches those deeper souls, souls never found, yet to be found, yet to be discovered.
Vocabulary how I love you so. How it comes at just the opportune time, how there is a word for each description, is lovely, its beautiful, it makes language so incredibly luscious, vibrant, and dreamy all at onces.
its like how ancient languages have deep meaning to their lyrics in a song, that when translated into mere english could not possibly encompass the intensity of the meaning behind the sentence or even simply a word. How in a language it is full of depth emotions, and vastness, and how in lame english, it just is, with no multi-dimensionality, it is simply a definition without the magic.
Perhaps I should have kept through blogs that I deleted from attempting to forget my past. Those beautiful parts of myself, lost in time and space. Lost simply. I wonder if writing makes you lose who you are, and if it doesn't, wouldn't that be a good thing. You lose who you are so you create room to become who you are meant to be. It is as if you create yourself, you make yourself, you grow.
However, some part of me does think that I'm perhaps loosing it in these write-ups and this is not how normal people write. Normal people write mindfully, with knowing how the words would connect to make a statement, to make a feeling arise, to make an impact. I write, simply to write. I don't know how it would be received, or read, or if it is good or bad, uplifting or exhausting. i simply don't, I simply write. And personally I hope this is the best way to write. The way that beats all other, because it flows my senses, all or atleast most of the senses. Perhaps I miss a few, like the feelings, like the mind, but perhaps it would get at something much deeper, something intrinsic, something everyone has, but perhaps is not aware of. Each and everyone of our true-selves. I would like to believe this is where I write from so that I hope it reaches those deeper souls, souls never found, yet to be found, yet to be discovered.
Vocabulary how I love you so. How it comes at just the opportune time, how there is a word for each description, is lovely, its beautiful, it makes language so incredibly luscious, vibrant, and dreamy all at onces.
its like how ancient languages have deep meaning to their lyrics in a song, that when translated into mere english could not possibly encompass the intensity of the meaning behind the sentence or even simply a word. How in a language it is full of depth emotions, and vastness, and how in lame english, it just is, with no multi-dimensionality, it is simply a definition without the magic.
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